I came into the Scottish Parliament knowing where I stood on most issues, and usually don’t struggle to share my reasons. The Assisted Dying Bill is the piece of legislation I have spent the most time coming to a conclusion on.

My instinct, as someone who has advocated for more care for dying loved ones; who worked in the NHS speaking to people who were content in the knowledge their life was coming to an end, but wanted it to come a little easier; and who would want the choice to pass quietly and painlessly in the worst circumstances, is to support the bill.

But for every very positive experience I’ve had with doctors, I’ve had more negative ones. I’ve been turned away, turned down, and let down. I’ve been told extreme depression is normal for someone who experiences chronic pain and sent away – “of course you’re suicidal. I would be, too.”

I’ve spoken to countless disabled people who’ve had their autonomy questioned, belittled, or even overridden in medical settings. From stories about DNACPRs applied without knowledge or consent to disabled people being told outright that they are a burden on those they love, these situations are violently common.

I have received thousands of emails from constituents and dozens of letters each explaining personal reasons for being for or against this bill. I have appreciated and considered all of these, alongside my many meetings with organisations and lobby groups on both sides of the debate.

I have engaged in conversations about safeguards, promises, and assumptions, and opened my mind as much as possible to all arguments. But I do not believe this bill is safe while disabled people are still not equal in society, so: I will be voting against this bill tomorrow.